Happy Anniversary. And today is the moment when a miracle happens because we made it to 5 years.

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Dear husband,

Congrats! Yes… we passed the 5- year test of time. Even I had my mood swings (pregnancy distress), you are still there you have tried to understand. You snuggle up next to me whenever I cry. Trust me, I wish I had snapped out from the pain and worries in life.

I don’t have the right to complain about my worries because between the two of us, it’s you who has no more energy to go on. BUT, you never get tired of caring our clingy and crying daughter and taking care of our needs.

I see everything how you make me feel better by carrying my loads as a mother. You cook for me and even wash our clothes (while you watching Hannah at the same time) when I can’t because I have to take care and feed the little one

I’m sorry hon. I should have given you more time to sleep.

Hon, I appreciate every single thing you have done for the family. I may not be vocal and expressive about it (because I am an Asian), but deep inside darling, I do. In fact, I thank the Lord for how bless I am to have you.

I understand that we are both exhausted from being parents and it is hard for both of us to switch off from being mom and dad. It is who we are now, but promise you I am going to try to be a wife.

Giving you

A morning kiss
A whisper of I love you
A hug of goodnight
I want you to know that you are as important as our children. I may get hurt, and anxious but promise I am going to understand where you coming from. I wouldn’t change anything nor have another life. I love you darling and I love this life we have both created (both bad times and good times).

I admit life is really tough for us, but it is harder without you and it feels like a house that has no pillars. You are the reason why I am here now standing strong for the family. I really need a father of my children. It wouldn’t be the same without you.

Now in our new journey together (on this day forward) as I accept my full responsibility as a mom, wife, friend and keeper(very exhausting indeed), I won’t promise you anything, but whenever I am fed up and feeling like to quit, I will look back on all the memories and live the moment I first realized God gave me you. I will look for those millions of reason to stay with you and why I choose to marry you. In short…I will never ever giving up on us. Just I ask God to take care and protect our hearts.
Happy Anniversary. And today is the moment when a miracle happens because we made it to 5 years.

Stars are not always beautiful to look at upon the dark night.

18/03/17 Stars are not always beautiful to look at.

It’s a beautiful sight to behold when stars appear at 🌃 night while she is sitting in the dark park carrying and feeding her hungry baby.Her child is like stars that envoys of beauty with a perfect and beautiful smile. Yes. It’s beautiful.But why can’t she, whose heart is frozen in darkness appreciate the beauty of it?

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She must be exhausted. She can’t even notice that she is wearing same clothes everyday that she forgets to eat to bath and even to brush her teeth — she forgets to laugh and to love herself. Even how beautiful the night, she can’t even notice them because her heart is tired from worries. What if she can’t protect them anymore.

What if their bright light slowly fading  away being drowned by darkness that surrounds them — bad people, uncontrollable accidents or even death. It’s not beautiful nor joyful to gaze at them at all. She is worried and even more worried upon her own death.

“What happen to my children when I die? ” she utters.

But she can’t control death and even can’t stop darkness to swallow  her alive. What gives her peace and happiness  is when she knows her little stars , her beautiful  children will stick to love one another — love that bounds them together through thick and thin.

And that one day when she’s gone, she is confident that her daughter will be willing to stand as the second mother to her younger brother and her son will always there for his sister to protect and defend her from all the men who will take her for granted.

And so from the day on forward, she can die and rest in peace.

Yes. They are beautiful to look at while they are still babies holding them in her arms singing lullabies joyfully. But when worries strike her, all the beauty have vanished just like that.  She forgets how beautiful to become a mother. Instead, she’s just so afraid what might the future brings upon her. And she is worried for the future of her children when one day she can’t hold them, can’t feed them and can’t sing them with beautiful lullabies. Because it is over. She won’t be there to protect and guide them. She won’t be here for long and not any longer. But, she trusts them to do the right thing in her absence.

Make your Trees Strong

These trees need a wind stress to be strong and so we are. We need problems, stress and difficulties in life to make our faith in Christ stronger. Remember the day when you cry and sincerely pray because you were in pain? Have you felt His presence? #Pray #lovegod #lifeisgood #MemoriesInPecs #Hungary #Abaliget

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Long Distance Love

In our long distance married life, we can’t avoid to have doubts, painful expectations and demands in our marriage. I am very emotional and sometimes he complains because of me being so demanding. I know I might cause him to explode sometimes. However, Psalm 89 keeps me grounded as it mentions unfailing love and truth. When truth is ignored, love is compromised. The Bible says we should speak the truth with love – doing so help me to grow more like Christ (Ephesians 4:15). I won’t forget this if I love my husband, I should speak the truth and do it in loving way. I should tell him all my frustrations, hurts, insecurity and pains honestly and lovingly and not shutting him off. #lovingmyhusband #foreverinlove

Itom nga Perlas

 

Dili ko igsapayan kung sa akong kaitom dili mo man ako makita sa ngitngit,
perlas nga itom man usab ako sa pasipiko–talagsaun,mahalon ug dili mo makuptan sa hingpit.

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